a freak-out and a prayer

Tomorrow is the big day. Yikes. I begin my chemo at 11:00 Friday morning. I feel calm. Now. I didn't feel that way yesterday. Friends, family, prayers and hugs - that's what getting me through it. I had lunch with Lis and Wanda yesterday and we laughed - thank you for that. We decided that women friends are so important. Men are ...men. I've got a good one, that's for sure - the best, without a doubt. Norm has dedicated himself to his family and loves us with all his heart. He's just not a touchy-feely kind of guy. Neither am I for that matter. Maybe that will be the main benefit of this horrible time. Maybe at the end of of this, our family will be better in touch of our feelings. Maybe I will be a nicer person. I certainly hope I can be as good a friend to others as you all have been to me. I would like to share a prayer that Jillayne sent me. She prayed for me via email - isn't that cool? 

Dear Heavenly Father~

I thank you, again, this day for my sister in Christ~ Jackie, and for the friendship I have come to cherish over the last 30 years.  I come to you this late hour  of the day to lift Jackie and her health challenges up once again to you.   I pray you will show her your tender but mighty love, that you will keep her close to you, guide her, encourage her, give her courage and wisdom; give her hope during the moments that she may feel down or discouraged and give her a peace that surpasses all understanding- your peace.  May you be the  peace in the midst of the uncertainty right now for Jackie and her family.  This being the uncertainty of the new found breast cancer and the newness of the treatment that is planned for January.  And I pray, Lord, that you will hold her with your arms tightly around her and may you give her cause to feel your presence close to her during the days and nights ahead.  And Lord, I pray for Norm and her precious children, as well, that they may know your love and presence in their lives and that they may be confident and know that without a doubt that you are the great physician and that you have Jackie in your care.  Lord, I pray for a great and mighty healing in Jackie’s body and that you might restore her health to that of strength and wellness.  We thank you for your provision today.  As well,   We thank you for what you have done for Jackie, for what you are doing for Jackie and for what you will do for Ja ckie in the days ahead. We wait upon you, O Lord, again this night. 

 We ask these things in the name of Christ~  Amen

Think of Wanda tomorrow morning. She will be loosing to me at crib. Feel sorry for her, not for me.